Happy Easter and Passover Blessings my dear followers!

Yes it’s been awhile, but when I don’t have much to say, I promise I won’t bend your ear (or, in this case, your eye).

Now, I find I have a lot I would like to share but finding the best way to do that and the time is a whole other matter.

I’ve been doing a lot of reading in advance of a woman’s retreat, as well as participating in Oprah & Deepak Chopra’s latest free meditation experience.  The four books we were assigned are by the following authors:  Brené Brown, Pema Chödrön, Mark Nepo, and Jim Loehr.  The theme of the retreat is all about meeting life as it is and not trying to escape the up and down rhythms that go with it.

Yikes.  Much easier said than done.  Let me speak for myself…I am good at avoiding pain.  I run from it, avoid it and any confrontation that may cause it for me or others, and I’m good at numbing it.  I don’t choose anything illegal, just things like television, shopping, reading, being constantly busy, work, and so on.  Somewhere along the way I got the impression life should always be happy, pleasant, positive and–if it wasn’t–the goal was to get back to that place as quickly as possible. It’s caused a lot of issues to be swept under the rug, several terminated or unhealthy relationships, and I’m sure some negative health issues that have manifested through unresolved conflicts that rest somewhere below the surface.

Fairy tales even have conflict; of course when I watch a good happily-ever-after story, I like to fast forward through those nasty parts.  Yep, I really do.  You know when the female heroine gets confronted by an evil force or she does something really foolish–the remote control is there to buzz right through that painful part.  That way, I can get to the “happy ending” much faster and without too much distress.

You might say, “Well, of course.  We all hate pain.  Why in the world would you want to embrace it?”  I don’t know…except in those rare occasions when I have sat with the pain, I’ve come away a better person.  I’ve learned.  I’ve grown.  I’ve gained perspective.  I’ve developed deeper empathy.  I’ve found out things about myself that were both off-putting and uplifting.

What’s the formula for “success” in this pursuit of pain?  I have no idea.  I’ll probably be trying to figure it out for the rest of my life.  But, I do think it’s an important key to balancing strength and grace–which is of course what this blog is all about.  Pain enables you to have compassion.  It helps us realize that we’re all a part of this human experience in spite of the different views we hold.  It makes us not-so-different after all, underneath our declared passions and tough exteriors.  Pain, vulnerability, shame–if we live long enough we all share in these difficult emotions.  It gives us more in common than we think.  I imagine that could bring each of us a broader perspective and some much needed peace.

Something to ponder.

Much peace and many blessings to you today and always!



I took today off.  Yes, I know it’s Saturday and I typically don’t work weekends, but I rarely take the day off.  I run errands; I read things for work; I do laundry; I straighten up around the house; I catch up on emails.  I don’t just sit and rest.

Today, I sat and rested.  It was a beautiful day here in Pennsylvania.  Partly sunny, low humidity, nice breeze and only about 75 degrees.  I did go for a walk earlier and sat out in the sun a bit.  But, mostly I sat on my screened-in porch with my feet propped up and read a book.  And, I watched birds, butterflies, squirrels and the trees swaying in the breeze.  My goodness it was lovely, and I think I may have to make a point of choosing to do it more often.

“We are always at choice,” is something my Georgetown mentor said to me again and again.  How true and also how hard to remember.  But, I received an interesting little message about this “we’re-always-at-choice” thing today, and it came in the form of a passage in the book I’m reading.

A couple weeks ago, there was an author on CBS Sunday Morning named Louise Penny who lives in a small village south of Montreal.  She writes crime novels and apparently has quite a following.  I had never heard of her before but I enjoy that genre of books so I decided to purchase one of the first in her “Chief Inspector Armand Gamache” series.  Coincidentally, this one is called, Still Life.  I chose to write this blog post because of something I just read in the book, not because of the title, but now I see the serendipity in the title and how I chose to spend my day.

Chief Inspector Gamache was asking this new agent who was assigned to his case how she learns.  She was as any of us have been in those early stages of our careers–eager to prove ourselves and to look good; we’re horrified if we do or saying anything embarrassing.  The Chief Inspector had witnessed her doing just that–trying to demonstrate her knowledge and her savvy–only to step on toes and annoy other, more senior veterans, on the team.  Anyway, here’s an excerpt from the book:

‘Think about it.  Tonight you can tell me what you’ve came up with.  For now, though, let me tell you how I work and what my expectations of you are.’

‘Yes, sir’ (she answers)

‘I watch.  I’m very good at observing.  Noticing things.  And listening.  Actively listening to what people are saying, their choice of words, their tone.  What they aren’t saying.  And this, Agent, is the key.  It’s choice.’


‘We choose our thoughts.  We choose our perceptions.  We choose our attitudes.  We may not think so.  We may not believe it, but we do.  I absolutely know we do.  I’ve seen enough evidence, time after time, tragedy after tragedy.  Triumph after triumph.  It’s about choice.’

‘Like choice of schools?  Or dinner?’

‘Clothes, hairstyle, friends.  Yes.  It starts there.  Life is choice.  All day, everyday.  Who we talk to, where we sit, what we say, how we say it.  And our lives become defined by our choices.  It’s as simple and as complex as that.  And as powerful.  So when I’m observing, that’s what I’m watching for.  The choices people make.’

‘What can I do, sir?’

‘You can learn.  You can watch and listen, and do as you’re told.  You’re a trainee.  Nobody expects you to know anything.  If you pretend to know you aren’t going to actually learn.’

‘…You need to learn that you have choices.  There are four things that lead to wisdom.  You ready for them?’

She nodded…

‘They are four sentences we learn to say, and mean.’  Gamache held up his hand as a fist and raised a finger with each point.  ‘I don’t know.  I need help.  I’m sorry.  And,…’  And he couldn’t remember the fourth and said, ‘I forget.’


I haven’t gotten far enough in the book to see what the fourth one is.  Any guesses?  I am curious and I’m interested in my reader’s input on this!

Anyway, I am working on better choices.  Choosing where I spend my energy and on whom.  Choosing what I eat.  Choosing how much I sleep.  Choosing where I work and with whom.  Choosing boundaries.  Choosing experiences over stuff (although I still get too much stuff!).  Choosing rest over constant movement.  Choosing to listen instead of speak.  Choosing to be curious over being “right.”  Choosing self-compassion over berating myself for mistakes.  Am I consistent at all these?  Are you kidding?  That would be a big, fat, “NO!”  So, I’m working on choosing forgiveness instead of perfectionism!  🙂

What choices would you like to change?



No, I’m not talking about pesticide.  I’m talking about the book TED* (The Empowerment Dynamic by David Emerald) and his Dreaded Drama Triangle which he patterned after Karpman’s Drama Triangle.  It’s a social model that is used to map conflicted or drama-intense relationship transactions.  The Karpman Drama Triangle models the connection between personal responsibility and power in conflicts, and the destructive and shifting roles people play.  Here’s a picture that gives you the general idea:



Oh, when I think of how many times I ended up on here throughout the years.  I’ll let you guess which role I usually started in!  But, as the theory states we shift roles around the triangle on a regular basis.

The Drama triangle is the stuff movies and songs are made of; every good tear jerker has a villain, a hero and a victim.  Sounds kind of familiar–doesn’t it?  And, those songs–OH those “killing-me-softly-with-his-words” songs that are crafted by master lyricists.  One of my recent favorite artists who does this incredibly well is Ed Sheeran.

I love Ed’s voice and his music.  He’s a good old fashioned story teller and he lays his heart out in his songs.  I just caught one of his songs off his relatively recently released album, “Divide.”  The lyrics are below, but you’ve got to listen to him sing it because his voice adds the necessary dimensions of sadness, longing, awareness, resoluteness, and all those other emotions you experience when you’re on the Drama Triangle.

If you want to listen to it, here’s the link from YouTube:

Save Myself

Ed Sheeran


I gave all my oxygen to people that could breathe

I gave away my money and now we don’t even speak

I drove miles and miles, but would you do the same for me?

Oh, honestly?

Offered off my shoulder just for you to cry upon

Gave you constant shelter and a bed to keep you warm

They gave me the heartache and in return I gave a song

It goes on and on

[Chorus] Life can get you down so I just numb the way it feels

I drown it with a drink and out-of-date prescription pills

And all the ones that love me they just left me on the shelf

No farewell

So before I save someone else, I’ve got to save myself

I gave you all my energy and I took away your pain

‘Cause human beings are destined to radiate or drain

What line do we stand upon ’cause from here looks the same?

And only scars remain

[Chorus) Life can get you down so I just numb the way it feels

I drown it with a drink and out-of-date prescription pills

And all the ones that love me they just left me on the shelf

No farewell

So before I save someone else, I’ve got to save myself

But if don’t

Then I’ll go back

To where I’m rescuing a stranger

Just because they needed saving just like that

Oh, I’m here again

Between the devil and the danger

But I guess it’s just my nature

My dad was wrong

‘Cause I’m not like my mum

‘Cause she’d just smile and I’m complaining in a song

But it helps

So before I save someone else

I’ve got to save myself

[Chorus] Life can get you down so I just numb the way it feels

I drown it with a drink and out-of-date prescription pills

And all the ones that love me they just left me on the shelf

No farewell

So before I save someone else, I’ve got to save myself

And before I blame someone else, I’ve got to save myself

And before I love someone else, I’ve got to love myself


Want to guess which role he’s playing on the DDT?  The language kind of gives it away although you could make an argument that his lyrics indicate shades of all three.


According to my coach, rescuers get burned out and I was curious enough about that (I wonder why?!?) to read more.  Here’s what I found online:


The term burnout usually refers to an exhaustion and mental collapse at work, prompting a person to change professions.  It results from a person approaching their work as a Rescuer and repeatedly ending up as a Victim in the Drama Triangle.  Usually they are in the game of “I’m Only Trying to Help You” in which unsolicited work is done for ungrateful people.  In time, the Rescuer begins to feel like a Victim–frustrated, unappreciated and unsorted–burned out.


It sort of sounds like the song, doesn’t it?  Can anyone out there relate????  Oh, I have a sneaking suspicion you do!





I was trying to catch up on my Richard Rohr blog posts or at least place the new sub-theme this week in context.  Rohr takes a theme for an entire year and builds it out in sub-themes that he tackles each week or every couple weeks.  This week’s theme is “Connecting with Universal Meaning.”  I was intrigued enough to read on.

After reading his post, I decided to listen to his 8 minute video introducing the theme for the year (2017) which is “From the Bottom Up.”  There were several things he said during that video that inspired me to blog.  Yes, I know it’s been a while.  I did have a vacation in there to Scotland…which is where my feature picture came from for today’s SWOG blog entry.  Eilean Donan Castle is my favorite spot in the Highlands of Scotland and we were fortunate to have the sun come out just before we got there.

But, I digress…

Back to Rohr.  So back in the late 1990’s all the world was talking about “paradigm shifts.”  It was becoming an overused phrase and many CEO business leaders would suffer a gag reflex when someone in their HR or OD areas would use it.  So swallow hard, because I’m about to pontificate on our own personal “paradigm shifts!”

Rohr quotes the author Thomas Kuhn who popularized the phrase, and it goes like this:

A paradigm shift becomes necessary when the plausibility structure of the previous paradigm becomes so full of holes and patchwork “fixes” that a complete overhaul, which once looked utterly threatening, now appears as a lifeline.

That quote really hit me as important in the journey of life.  We all create our own stories.  We create our own paradigms as we go through life.  Our stories are written initially by early influencers like parents, relatives, teachers, coaches and those who teach us and mold us according to their stories for navigating life.  Our stories help us choose and then rationalize actions and behaviors in accordance to our story.  We practice our politics and our religion according to the story we’ve adopted.  We choose our friends, our mates, our homes, our jobs according to the story we’ve crafted for ourselves.

And here’s the thing that nobody tells you early on in your story creation:  The story changes.  Yes, it does.  The story changes because something usually happens to us that makes us question our neatly created and well-maintained story. And, as the author says above, “when the plausibility structure of the previous paradigm (read here: story) becomes so full of holes and patchwork ‘fixes’ (read here: when we can no longer fit current events into our old story)… a complete overhaul now appears as a lifeline.”

This seemed to be saying to me:  Grab the lifeline.  Be flexible with your story.  Stay open to a different way of looking at things–including yourself.  Stay open to a different way of being.  Stay open to listening to the cues that prompt you to a different way of relating…to yourself…to others…to your spirituality.

I think this is the underpinning of vertical adult stage development.  When your way of making meaning in life is no longer working for you; when it “becomes so full of holes;” it may be time for a personal paradigm shift.  There’s a quote that goes, “Change your story, change your life.”  I know that can work, too.  But, sometimes your life changes first and then your story doesn’t seem quite right.

Is it time to update the edition of your story?  I wonder how many editions we will write until it’s all said and done?


A week or two ago, someone on the Georgetown Listserv advertised these artwork “posters” from Society6 to help remind people of some sound advice during these uncertain times.  I could not resist purchasing one.



For those that can’t see the verbiage, here’s what it says:


Feel all the things.  Feel the hard things.  The inexplicable things. The things that make you disavow humanity’s capacity for redemption.  Feel all the maddening paradoxes.  Feel overwhelmed, crazy.  Feel uncertain.  Feel angry.  Feel afraid.  Feel Powerless.  Feel Frozen.  And THEN


Pick up your pen.  Pick up your paint brush.  Pick up your damn chin.  Put your two calloused hands on the turntables, in the clay, on the strings.  Get behind the camera.  Look for that pinprick of LIGHT.  Look for the TRUTH (yes it is a thing–it still exists).  FOCUS on THAT LIGHT.  ENLARGE IT.  REVEAL THE FIERCE ENERGY OF NOW.  Reveal how shattered we are, how capable of being repaired.  But don’t lament the break.  Nothing new would be built if things were never broken.  A wise man once said:  There’s a crack in everything.  That’s how the light gets in.



Here’s the link to the Society6 site and the FOCUS print in particular:  https://society6.com/product/focus-by-courtney-martin-and-wendy-macnaughton_print#s6-7018448p4a1v45

I think it was Deepak Chopra that said something like (and I am going from memory so I’m likely paraphrasing):

When going through a difficult time ask the questions, “What am I supposed to learn from this?  What is this here to teach me?”

It’s worth pondering.  Peace and blessings.

Being a Superhero

Somehow the day after the Free Comic Book Giveaway seemed like a good time to talk about indestructibility.  We often think of superheroes like Superman, Batman, and Wonder Woman in those terms.  They’ve been through all sorts of dangerous plots and still come out the other side whole.

You just know, however, that this plot–ah, I mean post–will have a twist.  So let’s start with Richard Rohr’s Daily Meditation, and I will endeavor to apply his guidance to our journeys through life AND indestructibility.


Dying Into Life

The Wisdom traditions look at dying and resurrection differently than we’ve been taught–at least in main stream Christianity.  And, just in case you’re about to tune out because I’ve said something that typically bores or offends you, please read on.  Several of you are dealing with “destructibility” issues right now, and all of us will deal with them at some point in time during our lives.  Rohr says:

Death is not just the death of the physical body, but all the times we hit bottom and must let go of how we thought life should be…

Now, I’ve got your attention.  I’ve experienced “hitting bottom,” and I’ve lived beside people who have lost children unexpectedly, who have lost spouses unexpectedly, who have lost parents unexpectedly, who have experienced debilitating health issues, who have lost jobs unexpectedly, who have lost life savings unexpectedly, who have lost siblings at a young age, who have experienced divorce unexpectedly, who have watched their companies experience rapid decline, and really, the examples could go on.  The examples of how “we hit bottom” are countless and usually don’t happen just once in our lives.

Here is where the plot gets interesting.  Let me continue to explain by returning to the quote from Rohr:

…must let go of how we thought life should be and surrender to a Larger Power.  And in that sense, we all probably go through many deaths in our lifetime.  These deaths to the small self (ego) are tipping points, opportunities to choose transformation early.  Unfortunately, most people turn bitter and look for someone to blame.  So their death is indeed death for them, because they close down to growth and new life.

But if you do choose to walk through the depths–even the depths of your own sin and mistakes–you will come out the other side, knowing you’ve been taken there by a Source larger than yourself.  Surely this is what it means to be saved. Being saved doesn’t mean that you are any better than anyone else or will be whisked off into heaven.  It means you’ve allowed and accepted the mystery of transformation here and now.

If we are to speak of miracles, the most miraculous thing of all is that God uses the very thing that would normally destroy you–the tragic, sorrowful, painful, or unjust–to transform and enlighten you.  Now you are indestructible; there are no dead ends….This is not a one-time cosmic transaction, but the constant pattern of all growth and change.


What Does This Mean To Me?

I watch all of us hang on to ways of life, ways of thinking, ways of doing that no longer serve us.  I hear people say things like, “I just want to get through this so I can get back to my normal life.”

What if you’re not supposed to get back to your normal life.  What if you’re supposed to allow the “death” you are experiencing to transform your way of being, your way of thinking, your way of behaving?  What if there’s a deeper message and you’re being “pursued” to open yourself to the learning it can teach.  What if your greatest living is yet to come when you listen and allow the lessons to soak in, changing your thinking, your beliefs and, therefore, your outcomes?  What if you are indestructible because you are reborn to a new way of approaching your changed life?

What if…?  Maybe you really are a superhero?!?!



Impact = Intention


OK, SWOG Lady…what in heavens name do you mean by that heading?   Well, I’m so glad you asked!!

I was sitting in a webinar about a week ago and it was on coaching people in a certain stage of development.  The instructor–a really cool SWOG herself–said that so often our impact does not equal our intention and that is a great area for examination and continued development.

I love that equation.  Yes, we’re human.  So, this will likely be the case more frequently than we ideally would like.  After all, there aren’t many people that circle in our worlds that start out with bad intentions.  Most people don’t get up in the morning and say, “How can I really mess up people’s days today?”  At least, I would like to hope we all bound out of bed hoping to do more good than harm.  And, yet, there’s a lot of difficult stuff happening in our world and our lives.

If our intentions are good, the next question becomes, “Do our behaviors and outcomes match or equal our intentions?”  And if they do not equate, then what is getting in the way?

I’m spending a lot of time on this one.  It’s tricky.  Sometimes you can control your impact and sometimes you can’t–after all, how a message from you gets received by the recipient depends so much on their filters at that particular time.  But, I think more often than we suspect possible, we can get our intentions and our impact more closely aligned with one another.

How you ask?

Oh, I’m so very glad you did!!

First of all, I’m still working on staying curious not judgmental…so I want to say right up front…I don’t have the magic answers but I’m very willing to embark upon the discussion.  Most of you have read that I’m trying to meditate regularly and I’ve been using Oprah and Deepak Chopra’s 21-Meditation series.  I’m almost concluded with one on “Hope,” and it has some clues to our question posed above.  Here are some tidbits of wisdom from the series:

  • To reach people to share the energy of HOPE, you have to do more than just listen to them, you have to SEE them.  We all want to be seen and heard.  We all want validation.  When people are validated, they know you see them, you hear them and what they’re saying means something to you.  They feel like they’re not alone and that they matter.  That is the deepest reality, the deepest desire we all share–is to matter.  That’s the way to make HOPE real–for anyone in your world–make them matter.
  • The feeling level is all important.  Just as people detect when they are being judged, they also detect when they are accepted.  Don’t try to help someone if you feel you are angry, disappointed or ashamed.  Work on yourself first.
  • Getting to a place where you accept and welcome the other person’s existence, then you will create a heart-to-heart bond at the level of feeling.  This bond can work miracles because it takes down barriers of distrust, defensiveness, guilt and shame.
  • Realistically, every relationship gets tangled up in the past, making it hard to relate without judgment toward someone else.  Especially in families–there’s a tendency to put people in a box–believing they will never change. But consider how much you want to escape the box you’ve been put in.  Everyone has that feeling because everyone wants more freedom to be themselves.
  • When you allow that yearning of freedom in someone else, you can recognize how much you feel the same way and then ego doesn’t block your view.  You genuinely hope for the best in every situation no matter what happened in the past.
  • Staying in present moment awareness is simply conscious experience without the mind’s analysis or conceptualization (or judgment) including thoughts and feelings about the past and the future.  In any situation, allow yourself to be present to the experience without mental analysis and interpretation.  And you will find that you naturally drop the belief that you know what is best for someone else.

When our impact doesn’t equal our intentions, so often we missed the mark through our communication.  We pre-judge what someone is going to say or what they should do or what we hope they will do.  We don’t meet them with open minds.  We don’t stay in the present moment with a spirit of curiosity instead of pre-set expectations.  We don’t meet them where they are.  Why are we having difficulty having political discussions?  We’re so entrenched in our own views and biases about the “way things should be” we have difficulty listening with an open, non-judgmental mind.

And think of all the labels we use to pre-judge others:  Democrats, Liberals, Republicans, Conservatives, Felons, Christians, Muslims, Atheists, Refugees, Foreigners, Working Class, College-Educated, Veterans and the list goes on and on. When you hear those labels, can’t you just hear your mind beginning it’s mental gymnastics and assessments?

I dare you to…!

Here’s a challenge for you:  take one day and a piece of notebook paper.  Be an observer of your mind.  Note how many times you pre-judge a situation based on who you’re dealing with or who you hear about through the news or conversations.  At the end of the day note how much opportunity you have for changing your impact on people and outcomes.

And when someone doesn’t treat you with that same open mind as is bound to happen…well, that’s where grace comes in.  🙂


There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so.    ~William Shakespeare





Deep Listening

Oh my.  My journey seems to be ramping up.  I just completed a women’s deep listening retreat in the rural foothills of Virginia with a community of women seekers from all over the country.  Our two wonderful guides were instructors from the Georgetown community.  Here is a poem from one of the lovely ladies which she wrote during a deep listening exercise.  It made everyone shed a tear, and I just have to share it with this broader community of men and women in the SWOG world.  It is so relevant in this season of Spring and time of rebirth.


A Season of Fierce Blooming

All beautiful women here

Loving souls, brave souls,

Steel Magnolias

We share a proud strength

As we stretch into vulnerability

Like a flower opening to the Sun

Wild flowers, passionate roses,

Sacred lilies, vibrant daffodils

And many more

The variety is sumptuous

The colors breathtaking

Across the World we go about our blooming

Yet ALL connected are we

By the same fertile ground

That feeds our souls

And encourages our unfolding

Oh, Divine Garden


(Mary Carr 4/24/17)



Thank you dear SWOG’s for your grace and kindness.



So, I’m sorting through “life” right now–yeah, I know–I’m always sorting through life.  But, I’m trying to figure out where next career and job-wise.  Some opportunities are presenting themselves which is exciting, AND it makes it difficult for someone like me to know which way I should turn.

Late last night I opened a bottle of “Honest Tea” to take a few sips before I headed off to bed.  You’ve heard me talk before about Honest Tea and the quotes they have inside their bottle caps.  So, the bottle cap is lying quote side up on my kitchen counter top, and I was bending over my counter deep in thought.  I wasn’t focused on anything; I was just zoned out thinking about some of the options I need to sort through.  Quite frankly I was feeling tired and overwhelmed.

Suddenly my focus zoomed in on the cap and I moved closer to read the quote.  Here it is:


The ones among you who will be really happy are those who have sought and found how to serve.    ~Albert Schweitzer


Hmmmm.  I think that was timely on the universe’s part, and I still believe there is no such thing as a coincidence!

From a fellow SWOG:

Let It Go from Danna Faulds

Let go of the ways you thought life would unfold:

the holding of plans or dreams or expectations – Let it all go.

Save your strength to swim with the tide.

The choice to fight what is here before you now will

only result in struggle, fear, and desperate attempts

to flee from the very energy you long for. Let go.

Let it all go and flow with the grace that washes

through your days whether you received it gently

or with all your quills raised to defend against invaders.

Take this on faith; the mind may never find the

explanations that it seeks, but you will move forward

nonetheless. Let go, and the wave’s crest will carry

you to unknown shores, beyond your wildest dreams

or destinations. Let it all go and find the place of

rest and peace, and certain transformation

Trust and surrender dear SWOGs.  Trust and surrender.